Goodbye to Myself (さよなら私)

Drama 10

The people who exchanges souls, Tomomi and Kaoru.

The people who exchanges souls Tomomi and Kaoru

The two who were living out the other's lives...

The two who were living out the other's lives

Do you know what the shadow in this section is?

Ah... no.

We suspect that you have breast cancer.

When this section here was examined with ultrasound, that was confirmed in this image.

If... I wasn't around, what would you do?

What do you mean?

Kento needs a mother, doesn't he?

If I became ill...

...I would choose the woman.

Tomomi...

You had an exam, didn't you? A screening for breast cancer.

Ah... Yeah.

Eh? What about it?

In your body...

...there's breast cancer.

Eh?

Your body...

...and my soul that's within it...

...might die.

If that's the case, then God's and your plan was a success!

I...

...will definitely protect her.

Even at the sacrifice of this body.

If it's for your sake, I would even die for you.

Hey.

Huh?

Is that really true?

Why?

What does this mean?

You're just trying to put me on the spot, aren't you?

What is this?

Hey.

Calm down.

I couldn't calm down, now could I?

What are you saying?

Since that's not your body...

...don't go saying such things.

It is my body.

Eh?

That's what I think.

I've decided to think that.

Since we've exchanged places...

...even if we say "it's wrong, it's wrong" forever, it won't change things.

Nothing would come of that, would it?

That's why I've decided to think of this body as my own.

I love this body.

Well, I do think the woman over there is a good one, too, though.

What are you talking about?

I don't know the meaning of that.

This isn't a situation to go saying such things, now is it?

After all...

...there's cancer involved, isn't there?

That's true.

Don't give me, "that's true"!

Since it's not your body, don't get such calm look on that face!

It is mine!

Even if I have to take painful treatments and have to battle the cancer from here on...

...and even if I have to fight against my fears and have surgery...

...the one who loses their life if this metastasizes is me!

If that happens...

...then I'm the one who won't be in this world any longer!

I'm sorry...

...for shouting at you.

No...

I'm sorry.

Will you have the surgery?

Yeah. I will.

The breast...?

Yeah.

They'll cut it off.

This breast.

The lump... is right around here.

I hate this. We have to start swimming lessons again.

It is the one Haruko hates.

Because I can't swim. I can't swim yet.

Eh?! You're kidding, right?

Ehh... Yours are pretty, Tomomi.

Really? Thanks.

How about yours, Kaoru?

Never mind about mine.

Why? That's unfair.

It's okay.

Why? 'Cause you don't got any?

Huh?! What's that "don't got any"?

No reason you wouldn't have 'em, right?

That's true, but don't mind about mine.

I don't need 'em.

You don't need 'em?

Mine are pretty good.

What can I do? I've got big breasts!

It's true.

That's true.

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Episode 5 "Crime and Punishment"

It's my fault, isn't it... Sorry.

No.

It's my fault.

Why's that?

I'm paying for what I did. It's divine punishment.

I betrayed you and this is my punishment for that.

I'm sorry. I really am.

And for one other thing.

I'm being punished for having killed the child that was inside me.

Why do you say something like that?

After all, you had a miscarriage, didn't you?

Yeah.

In that case...

I... was relieved by it.

I was relieved.

I decided I would do it myself.

That I would give birth alone and would raise it alone.

I absolutely decided I wouldn't become a parent like my mother who would abandon her own child.

But then I miscarried...

...and somewhere in my heart, I was relieved.

After I had broken up with the man I liked...

...I immediately found out that I was pregnant.

So...

...I had no choice but to give birth and raise it alone...

But... "Can I really do that?"

"Maybe I would be the same as my Mother."

That's why...

That's why I'm being punished.

Kaoru...

Why didn't you talk to me about this?

Why didn't you come and discuss it with me then?

I would have wanted to listen to you.

I couldn't have done that.

Why not?

I just couldn't.

I was thinking of killing myself.

Eh?

That's what I was feeling.

I think that's why this sort of thing happened.

You and I exchanging places.

What do you mean?

I'm sure... it's been decided that Tomomi will die.

But that would be far too sad and then there's Kenta-kun, too.

So, since I, your best friend, had betrayed you...

...it was decided I would be sacrificed instead.

That's why...

Don't say such stupid things!

This is just what I think it is.

That's why I get this feeling I'm going to die.

Don't go killing off my body because of your selfish beliefs!

That's not what I mean...

You're always making excuses.

Whenever something painful happened it was, "Don't worry about me."

"Even if something happens to me, don't think anything about it."

"It won't matter even if I do die." That sort of attitude.

Isn't that just running away in the end?

Just an excuse to run away.

"I was unhappy from the start..."

"...so I'm not used to being happy."

"Because I'm different from ordinary people."

By thinking that way, you could feel you were a special human being.

What's that "I was thinking of killing myself"?

Stop joking around!

I won't allow it!

I absolutely won't allow that!

You're being punished because you betrayed me?

In that case, take responsibility for it and get my body cured!

Don't run away because you feel sorry...

...and take responsibility for it!

Why do you have to go that far?

What on earth is this?

I have to accept who I am right now...

I wish you would cry.

It's okay to cry, isn't it?

It's fine to say, "I'm scared!"

"I'm scared! I'm scared! I'm scared!" and then cry!

"It's cancer," "I'm going to die..."

Anyone would be scared at that, wouldn't they?

I'm scared...

I can't hear you!

I'm scared.

I want to be saved.

Kaoru, I'm sorry.

I'm sorry, Kaoru...

No...

I would hate it if my own body died...

...but I would hate it even more if Kaoru wasn't in this world.

I would absolutely hate that!

Let's do our best together.

Start!

Jump!

Okay!

Did Papa lose?

Okay! It's turbo time!

I'm home.

Welcome back.

Welcome home!

I'm home.

Okay, that's a win!

Ah... I'm out of gas!