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It is you who took them away.
Yes.
You are not even trying to deny it.
I don't need to deny it.
I did this
in order to unburden you of your worries.
Unburden my worries?
I am indeed unburdening you of your worries.
Is this called unburdening my worries?!
Don't think that I don't know what you are scheming!
Your Imperial Highness,
I did it because I understand
that she does not deserve your affections.
It is not up to you to decide if she is deserving or not.
Do you know that what you did is punishable by death?!
Your Imperial Highness, are you really going to give me the death penalty?
It was I who begged her to take me out of the palace.
This has nothing to do with her.
If you want to punish someone, then punish me.
Be quiet! Of course, I will punish you!
You have been in the palace for so long. Why have you not made any progress?
You believe anyone's words.
The days I have spent in the palace
was to discern a person's character all over again.
The time I have spent is indeed too long.
What are you saying?
Your Imperial Highness.
She has never liked you. Do you really not understand this?
She personally told me
that she does not like you! That she does not care about you!
She has not even an ounce of affection for you.
In this palace, she would rather choose me to take her away from here,
than to be forced to stay by your side.
Even if her heart does not have me in it,
my heart only has her in it.
Then what about me?
What am I to you?!
Exploitation!
From the beginning to the end, I have always been exploiting you! Are you satisfied now?!
So it was just exploitation.
I thought that I loved you and you also loved me.
But in the end, this was all just exploitation?!
I, Zhao Sese,
since the first time I saw you,
had already fallen in love with you.
From that moment, I lost myself.
My entire life revolved around you.
Everything that I have done was also for you.
I still remember
that day when I sent you off to the far away Xi State.
You and I promised to be together.
But when you came back,
nothing was as it was in the past.
I saw you marry someone else with my own eyes,
and saw you gradually hide someone else in your eyes and heart.
But I stupidly told myself
that as long as your heart still had me in it, then I still had not lost.
But now,
you are telling me...
that these past years have been my own wishful thinking?!
I do not blame you.
I do not blame you.
It was I who wanted to like you.
But this time,
I must admit that I have lost.
I did not lose to her,
but lost instead to
the love for you, where I gambled everything on.
You just lost
the person who loved you the most in this world.
I grieve for you.
Yongniang, your hands are very fragrant.
Like my mother's.
I remember you were terribly sick when you first came to the palace.
You were so hot from fever every day and night.
The imperial physicians were afraid of using random medicines
in case something bad happened to you.
I stayed with you all the time.
You didn't speak the Central Plains language well at that time.
While dreaming, you kept saying
that you want "shanzi."
Later, I came to understand that
"shanzi" meant mom in the Xi State language.
In a blink of an eye, it's been over two years.
Crown Princess Consort, you are already an 18-year-old adult.
In the future, you must not be willful and boisterous anymore.
I will listen to you.
In the future, I will not be willful and boisterous anymore.
You're playing such a sorrowful melody,
as if everyone has betrayed you.
I can betray everyone,
but I do not wish to betray you again.
But you are not worthy of anyone's love.
If you had a little bit of humanity in you,
you wouldn't have said those words to Lady Zhao.
Love has always been not worth a cent at all in front of you.
Power must be what you truly want to pursue in your life.
Xiaofeng,
you are actually the only one I want in my life.
You used to like Lady Zhao so much.
You argued with me every day because of her.
But now, you say you've been using her.
You originally hated me so much,
telling me every day that you wanted to divorce me.
But now, you say that I am the only thing you want in your life.
How do you expect me to believe someone like you?
You do not understand.
A lot of things were out of my control.
You are forever being forced to do things beyond your control.
Your explanations will never be able to answer my questions.
If one day,
I endanger your throne, your land, your imperial court,
will you kill me?
The Eastern Palace is even more dangerous than the imperial court.
Being Crown Prince is even harder than being the emperor.
You didn't know all the hardships that I endured along this journey.
Will you...
one day kill me, too?
Xiaofeng, I will not kill you.
I will not allow anyone to hurt you either.
I will treat you well. I will be good to you for a lifetime!
I beg you, even if you do not like me,
even if your heart does not even have an ounce of me in it, it is fine.
If I wanted you to
let go of the emperor's position that you're so close to obtaining now,
and die with me, would you be willing?
Why must you still speak of death?!
We will both not die! We will not die!
Everything has settled down. There are only you and me now.
You are not willing.
Then will you only believe my words
once you have seen me dead?
You will not die.
You will live well.
But you will not be by my side, right?
I really hate... really hate that the person in your heart is not me.
Why?
Why?
Li Chengyin,
actually my heart... has always had you in it.
What did you say just now? What did you say?
Say it again! Say it again!
What I said just now, I really hate...
really hate that my heart has always had you in it.
With these words, even if I die,
I am contented.
I am telling you this today...
because I am going to say goodbye to you.
Goodbye,
my...
Gu Xiaowu.
The sedating drug of Dashi State is really strong.
When he wakes up,
we will have already left the palace.
Yongniang.
What do we do? If Yongniang doesn't leave, the Yulin Palace Guards will soon get here.
At that time, we really will not be able to escape.
You wait here for me.
Yongniang, Xiaofeng is leaving.
I will miss you.
Princess.
I thought...
that you would not let me leave.
But you were actually here waiting for me.
In the past, I always thought that
you would only allow me to memorize books, learn rules,
and curry favor with others. I thought you did not understand me.
Princess,
we must hurry and leave. If we do not leave now, it will be too late.
A'Du, release Yongniang.
Hurry!
Maybe, it's best for Yongniang this way.
It's cold at night.
Sorry to make you suffer.
Princess.
Mi Luo!
You are finally here.
I was so worried and afraid that you couldn't make it here today.
I was also not sure before I got here today.
I'm glad we finally made it out.
You weren't discovered, were you?
What is it?
Is there still anything that you can't bear to leave?
It's only til I was leaving that I discovered
there are people who truly cared for me in the Eastern Palace.
There are also people that I feel sorry to.
Xaiofeng, since you've made your decision,
then don't hesitate and drag it further.
Princess, Yongniang won't blame you.
In that palace,
besides hurting your heart, your health, even your life,
there is nothing to gain.
You have to leave in order to keep yourself alive.
Come, let me explain the plan to help you leave the city.
- All right. - Princess, sit.
Xiaofeng... Xiaofeng?
Xiaofeng! Xiaofeng!
Guards! Guards!
Xiaofeng!
Your Imperial Highness?
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