How Long I've Kissed (아내의 자격)

=Episode 13=-

I am deliriously happy right now.

The thought of living with you, has played in my mind a hundred times over.

The thought of spending my life with you,

the two of us together, brings to mind a picture of absolute bliss.

What then is the problem?

We will take good care of Gyeol,

so you should just forget about everything and start afresh.

You should just put your mind at ease.

What did you say?

Don't destroy his future and live to regret it later.

Give it a thought and do the right thing.

Now is not the right time.

Why? Because of Gyeol?

'Now is not the right time', that's your excuse for dragging your feet all this while

and with that same excuse we'll never end up living together ever.

It's fine with me if Gyeol were to live with us.

I didn't expect you to come to me alone.

The strings that come attached with you are a part of you.

In fact I just saw Gyeol.

What?

It was after you left for work.

He said he wanted to come and surprise you.

But I was mad as hell.

You bear with so much suffering trying to conceal all this from Gyeol.

What else could I do?

What did you say to him?

We talked a bit and then I sent him home.

Did you tell him about my work?

Although I didn't say anything but your attitude may force me to reveal it.

What's wrong with my attitude?

You clearly know the reason why I have to conceal this.

I'm not saying I will do so.

Then what is it?

Working hard itself is not a problem,

but it's your motivation and reasons in trying to make money that's wrong.

I've said this before,

your circumstances and mine are different.

Not that again!

I'm really very unhappy.

Bo Reum has a wealthy mom to take care of her, I don't have money to take care of her,

that's the reality.

But if we go on that basis, does that mean we can't love our children just because we have no money?

So what happens to all those people without money?

If due to unforeseen circumstances, a parent is not able to take care of his child,

is this evidence that he doesn't love his child?

So how do you regard the children and the parents from broken families?

It's because I was lacking that I was forced to let Gyeol live with his father.

I'm vulnerable on all fronts!

So I said, why must you get yourself all worked-up over them?

Are you going to keep at this until they are satisfied?

And then confront them and say, "I'm capable now" and take Gyeol with you? Am I wrong?

If you do that, you are just the same as them.

Even without money, you can still love Gyeol.

You should be telling them, 'I'm very confident I know best how to bring up Gyeol and so I'm going to raise him myself.'

That's what you should say. That's how you handle them.

In exactly the same way I deal with you, Seo Rae.

Can money triumph over love?

The one thing that allows people to be together despite the lack of money is love.

After a tiring day at work, to come home and sit down with your family,

whether it's playing 3-6-9 or catch a rat,

to laugh heartily and then sleep soundly.

If you live like this and if you are still dissatisfy with it, then seek the government's assistance.

Then it becomes a matter for the government to attend to.

Do you think that not able to see your child and to let your child be separated from you is your fault?

That's absolutely not the case.

If you love him then bring him back to your side.

That's why I plan to buy a house and invite you to stay with me.

Gyeol? Better still, bring him along to stay with us.

I will give it serious consideration.

Consider? Don't do that.

You always take into account the wrong factors.

If you can't figure out where you went wrong, just follow me and do what I say.

Over time you will be able to see things clearly.

All right. You should tell Jae Hun yourself.

Jae Hun.

Dad on the line.

Hello.

Jae Hun, I'm sorry to disappoint you.

My office business trip was cancelled.

Oh, is that so?

Thanks to you, I'm able to get those model questions.

Aigoo. You can't do that Oppa!

Whatever, we must still verify it.

Aiyo! If you inform her Gyeol had disappeared and cannot be contacted,

then she will seize on this and say you are a bad parent.

You should remember what I told that woman a few days ago.

I told her to get married and live well and forget about Gyeol.

After such harsh words, how can we inform her about Gyeol?

If you do that, you and I and also Mom and Dad, what are we going to do then?

Damn it!

Oh.

What? What is it? What is it?

Children who suddenly run away from home will normally leave behind some clues.

Myeong Jin. This.

He left without taking his handphone?

Could this be an indication that he really intends to runaway from home?

Let's take a look at his phone log first.

A-jus-si?

Don't tell me it's that bastard?

That Yun Seo Rae's bastard!

If it is really him, I can't put up with this any more!

Why would Gyeol have his phone number?

Is this the United States? Are we shooting an American soap?

Did he believe Gim Tae O to be an upright man, his mother's handsome boyfriend?

No, this won't do, this is driving me crazy. Hurry up and follow me.

Don't tell her I was with you when you saw this.

Yes. Cancelled?

So you're at home now?

But nobody's at home.

=Hurry up and come now!=

Yun Min has gone for her cello class.

Yun Jae... should be home at this hour.

You should be heading home.

All right, I'll going now.

But keep my words in mind.

I will give it serious thought--

Not to give it serious thought but keep them in mind.

I know better than you what you want to say.

How is that possible? Even I cannot understand the complexity of my own heart.

Do you know why it's so complicated?

Because of your fears.

That you are not qualified to be a mother. Terrified that the world will continue to castigate you.

Fear that Gyeol's father will continue to domineer over you.

You are right.

Although I pretend everything's fine and under control,

but I'm actually always trembling with fear.

Just to prove that I'm not a bad mom.

Because I want to proclaim loudly in their presence, that I'm a well-to-do mom who can afford to bring up my own child.

What you said is correct.

What I'm doing shows I'm no different from them.

A year ago when I was driven out, that night,

driving up the mountain range in freezing weather, I had clearly decided,

I will never feel inferior again.

=You folks who laud the enjoyment of a lavish and opulent lifestyle.=

=I will never again in my life=

=look up to that and drool.=

=I want to live a good life.=

=To love my son in my own way.=

I will never use "that's right" to console myself anymore in the future.

This is clearly what should be done...

but it's really hard and I've not been able to accomplish it.

I feel like I kept being kicked around.

While being beaten, I kept saying "stop beating me, I'll do better."

I feel like I'm always trying to beg them for forgiveness.

I am really an idiotic creature.

I'm sorry. I'm really sorry.

I didn't realize you were in so much pain, I'm sorry. I'm sorry.

Gee, why are there trash bags strewn all over the place?

Look where you are walking, this neighborhood is filthy.

Ohhh!

What are you doing?

Hello.

Hey, you two!

Oppa, don't get yourself all riled-up. Let me do the talking.

When did you meet up with Gyeol?

What's the matter?

What do you mean "what's the matter?" Do you think we came looking for you at such a late hour because of something trifle.

What happened to Gyeol?

The child must be feeling extremely insecured for him to take such ridiculous actions.

What?

Didn't I say to you previously?

To forebear for a while, why didn't you listen to me?

What did you tell the child?

Tell me exactly what had happened!

What exactly did you let the child see?

I met him earlier.

What?

By chance, I didn't say much to him.

Then why is he not at home? He has run away from home!

What?

Oppa, how can you say that?

The child had gone missing!

When did this happen?

You definitely dropped him in front of the apartment, right?

Yes.

But I didn't wait for him to go in.

Then he...

No, that's not possible.

Do you still think you know your child well?

You have not live with him for more than a year now.

Taking my child without my permission, I'll settle that issue with you later.

Sending a child home late at night, you should at least make sure he entered the door!

I...

Looking at the way you treat a child, I can determine the kind of person you are!

He's a person without breeding.

Are you all right?

I'm going to call all his friends and find out if they know anything.

Hey! I've already called them. Don't try to make yourself look so pathetic.

If you are really worried, you should not have let things slide to this from the outset.

I'd already warned you several times previously.

Even his aunt had sought you out and spoken to you about this, you should have listened!

Do you know how to be responsible for a child?

Is it just to meet occasionally and laugh?

Hey, hey, hey!

She's making a few calls. Just wait for some news.

Why are you shielding her? Are you trying to protect that woman?

Even if you do this , you and Gyeol can only be strangers.

Don't you understand our feelings?

No, I don't.