Polaris

OK, right...

Fuck!

For fuck's sake!

Fuck!

What a ball-breaker!

Fuck it!

That's why I wanted you to answer.

Once out at sea, I'll have no signal for a week.

Can you hear me?

Listen to me.

Forget it!

What a ball-breaker.

Hey, sister... Hello?

Hey! How're things?

Better than yesterday. I think the baby's on her way.

Shit, I'm so upset!

Well, me, the closer it gets,

the more I think she'll come out through my you-know-what.

I never thought about that.

Oh fuck!

It's so... scary.

I was watching this film...

I don't even want to look!

And I thought, "I can't send her this!"

Even me,

I've never watched a delivery or whatever on my phone.

I was like, "I don't wanna see this,

"or I won't even go to hospital."

I'll only look down there when she's out!

Sorry but your sister's out of range.

I'll try her again later, OK?

Princess.

All right.

Can you take a photo?

OK.

Beautiful baby.

I don't know how she put on weight,

with all the junk I ate. Burgers, sandwiches...

But she isn't in an incubator,

so she was a healthy weight at birth.

She's a beautiful baby, a normal baby.

Poor thing.

Baby.

Stop bottle-feeding her.

She's confused.

You think it's because of that?

It isn't only that.

Even the pacifier.

Stop until you start to lactate.

She has no trouble sucking.

But she's finding it hard to latch on.

Because it isn't the same shape as the bottle.

She's having to suck hard to get the milk to flow.

It'll make her irritated.

Like the lady said yesterday,

maybe it's hard because of...

No. Look at her.

Because I have milk.

Yes, you do, so there's no need to bottle-feed.

That's for sure.

Good job, pumpkin.

But she's having to switch between the breast, the bottle...

And she's confused.

Exactly, it's why she's irritated.

But she sucks really well. The milk is flowing.

Look.

It's a shame.

- I'd rather breastfeed her. - Of course.

It's more natural and better for her too.

The doc said, "You've produced a remarkable baby."

Really?

Usually a baby's head does this...

It can't hold its head up.

But she's like this...

Looking for my breast everywhere.

My crazy baby!

On the first day, when she opened her eyes,

I was blown away. I told everyone.

I've seen lots of babies.

But they don't usually open their eyes on day one.

The doctor said, "Her eyes are wide open."

She's really lively.

- Thanks! - Good luck!

Come home fast!

Maybe she's trying to tell you something.

You ran around loads when she was in your tummy.

She's telling you, "You didn't let me rest.

"I won't let you rest now."

I said that to her earlier. I was lying next to her upstairs.

I said, "I didn't realize I had a beauty inside of me."

I was talking to her like a madwoman!

- I'm crazy, huh? - A bit. You always have been!

I cried the day before yesterday.

"What's my daughter gonna say to me?"

About what?

"Where are Grandpa, Grandma and my cousins?"

She's gonna be so...

- Don't worry. - See what I mean? No dad, no...

So what? She isn't the first or the last.

It makes me really...

I know, but don't let it get to you, lots of kids are still happy.

I'm worrying myself sick.

Just talking about it makes me...

But she's not unhappy.

There's Mom, Auntie...

That's a solid base, Leila.

Leila, listen to me.

By tomorrow I need to know where you're at.

If you need money, I'll transfer it before I go.

Or you'll be broke for two weeks.

She needs my scent...

She hates being alone.

Your scent is cigs, huh!

She's gotten used to that.

You know what I was thinking?

She'll become addicted to the smell

and likely end up a smoker.

I'll smash her face in.

Yeah, right!

No. You can explain to a child.

Why do you think we smoke?

We grew up with the smell.

As an adult, you seek the same smell.

That's in your head, Hayat!

No, it's been proven.

I'll make her do sport,

and she'll realize smoking is pointless if she wants to do something.

Yeah, but smells are something that stay in your memory.

Mom's tobacco smell is comforting so a kid associates cigs with that.

Hayat, let me explain.

I smoked when I breastfed her.

I've weaned her now. She has fits sometimes...

- just like that - but less so now.

She tugs her hair.

It's funny.

There, she's doing it now.

She's had her shower.

She'll be fine until the morning now.

Do you read her stories?

Not yet. I have to learn how to read first!

It'll be good practice for you.

I'll read her a story.

"I...

"am..."

You moron! It's time to get off your ass.

"Get off your ass."

I'm kidding!

No, reading is OK, but writing... fuck me!

Sometimes when you write, I understand nothing!

Forget writing. She can learn with you.

Even at a distance. You can be like this on her desk.

Happy homework!

Shall we swim a bit?

Let's swim.

Shall we swim?

1, 2, 3...

Do you want bubbles?