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I don'’t know where it came from but...

Full songs just started... coming in my mind,

I'’m not sure where they came from exactly.

I'’m sure part of it was the chaos

of everything around me...

but...

Before I met Anton, I actually never considered myself...

to be an artist,

I never... had a label for it,

I didn'’t think about it...

It'’s weird, from the moment I met Anton

I felt so connected to him.

There was something behind his eyes.

I knew that him and I would be connected for a very long time.

When I first met Kate, I didn't know who I was.

She pushed me silently, I pushed her vocally.

From the moment our eyes met,

it was like looking at myself in the mirror.

I saw in her what I didn't see in myself.

And I think she saw the same...

When Keith entered our life...

He completed us.

She's kind of like a tree,

and Anton and I are like the fruit.

And we grow together.

Hopefully, we'll fall and make our own trees.

The three of us together, for me that was...

the most amazing...

part of my life.

He's waiting, he is...

To steal you down... until your body, it comes.

And the day grows faster...

but you can't put out the never...

I awoke to the raven.

Well, if you want to know,

your mother's quite busy these days,

she's still involved with the church and planning

your grandmother's retirement party.

I hope you will come.

So, what have you been doing?

We haven't heard much from you lately.

Been working on my music, and my poetry...

Your poetry?

And what does that pay?

Are you listening?

It is time for you to get a job.

Look at the people you run with.

All these musicians, freaks, weirdos, faggots!

I'm gay too.

I like boys and girls.

Your mother would die if she heard that.

You're sick.

Are you on drugs?

Tell me the truth. Are you?

You're making poor and dangerous choices

you will regret for the rest of your life.

If that's what you want to do, don't bother coming home.

Don't call me.

Don't call your mother.

We don't want to know.

The Center for Disease Control has uncovered

disturbing new evidence of the epidemic's reach.

Formerly known as Gay Related Immune Deficiency or GRID...

AIDS weakens the immune system,

leaving its victims open to common infections

like tuberculosis, pneumonia as well as rare forms of cancer.

At risk groups include

homosexuals, hemophiliacs, and intravenous drug users.

Health care is a right.

Medicine is a right. Dignity is a right.

At this point, we have had 1.6 billion dollars

allocated for AIDS education and AIDS research.

We have been asking for more money

for residential care of the two million Americans

that are HIV positive.

At this point that has not occurred...

As a NYPD Narcotic's detective

I'm out on the streets every day.

I can't really get too close,

because I don't want to get their saliva.

I just tell them to go against the wall.

"Spread your arms, spread your legs..."

But I have two daughters

and I can't have them go to the park anymore.

There are syringes, there are drug dealers,

there are homeless people here.

And you know I heard that people can catch AIDS

by sneezing on other people.

They say it's transmitted through like saliva,

and blood and sweat.

I can't take that chance with my kids.

The virus has been causing

widespread panic across the U.S.,

where over 4,000 people have been infected

since the discovery of the disease in 1981.

Almost half have died.

This is an epidemic.

How many more need to die before you do something about it, huh?

It could be your brothers, your sisters, your aunts,

your uncles, your fathers, your mothers, your sons,

your daughters.

It will be them next. Do something, make it happen.

Make a change, make a difference.

All right? You're OK?

The virus is completely unprecedented.

It compromises the immune system of the patient

and opens them up to

a wide range of complications.

It's not easy to describe

because the medical community has a lot to learn from it.

We have more questions than answers at this stage.

Since no one knows how the virus is transmitted,

we can't tell you how not to catch it.

You just can't stay away from this or that.

We just need to keep researching and make sure

that our patients receive appropriate care.

That's all we can do for now.

- Doctor, you're needed in-- - I got it, thank you.

I started volunteering when my brother told me he got it,

unfortunately so... There's not much we can do.

Basically, we help the patient to die.

We try our best to make them comfortable.

There's been a lot of people coming through the door lately,

but we really don't have a place for them.

We only have so many beds in this hospital, and...

I'm sorry, I have to get back to work.

"Dark and wrinkled, like a purple pink.

It breathes, nestling humbly amongst the still-damp.

Froth of love, follow the gentle slope

of the white buttocks all the way to the crater's edge.

Filaments like tears of milk have wept

for the cruel wind, which pushes them back,

across the little clots of reddish marl

they lose themselves

in the same slope that called them.

My dreams have kissed its opening.

My soul, jealous of physical coitus,

has made it its fawn-coloured tear-bottle

and nest of sobs.

It is the rapturous olive and the wheedling flute,

The tube from which the heavenly burnt almond falls:

Feminine Canaan enclosed among moistures."

Hey!

How are you today?

I'm OK.

The nurses want more blood from me.

They'’re like vampires.

Do you want me to go get somebody?

No, no, it's OK. I'm used to waiting.

Are they always this slow here?

Well they don't have enough staff

for all the patients, so...

We wait.

- Who's that? - It's Jim.

Is he nice?

Yeah. He seems nice.

He's worse off than me,

that's all I really know about him.

It's so ugly here.

I wish I could paint the walls for you or something.

Yeah, more colours.

We should graffiti them.

You should...

Oh I brought you some something.

Colours.

- Sorry. - It's OK.

Do you remember that?

Yeah!

Shit!

You know what the Jews say:

"Why does shit always happen to us?"

So you're Jewish now?

And the Catholics say,

"If shit happens, then we deserve it."

You're not Catholic either.

And the Buddhists say,

"If shit happens, then it really isn't shit anymore."

So you're a Buddhist then?

No. They feel great.

I feel like shit, Kate.

I know.

I'm sorry.

How is everyone?

How's Tony?

I don't know. I haven't seen him.

What about John?

I'm not sure.

What about Damian?

I saw Damian.

Like a couple weeks ago.

He good?

Yeah, he's OK.

Good.

I missed you.

I missed you too.

I miss Anton too.

Where is he?

I don't know,

I think he's just working all the time now.

I should be working.