RuPaul's Drag Race: Untucked

This is not RuPaul's Best Friend Race.

I feel very attacked!

I was trying to be closer with you.

If I would have lip-synced for my life

today, bitch, I was ready to do so!

This is Untucked,

backstage of the competition

to become America's next drag superstar.

Girl, if you're not watching Untucked,

you're only getting half the story.

Break on the main stage.

Jacqueline to Untucked, resetting the queens.

All cameras re-fo.

Thank you, ladies, I think we've heard enough.

Now, while you untuck backstage,

the judges and I will deliberate.

You may leave the stage.

There's a high chance that any of us

could be in the bottom.

I haven't forgotten that there's only seven of us,

and that is really terrifying, honestly.

I'm nervous. I could be in the bottom

because I didn't show my true self in my lyrics.

I'm just so in my head.

If it was just based off the main challenge,

I might be in the top,

but if it's taking everything into consideration,

bitch, I might be goin' home.

And that has me shooketh.

Marker.

Queens walking.

Jacqueline, please escort the queens in.

Send the queens in three, two, one.

-Ooh, yes, go, queen, go, honey. - I'm good.

-Oh, my goodness. -Ooh.

-Ah! This is so dark. -Yes.

- Oh... - Ooh, well, OK...

- Well, we made it. - We are here.

Can you give me the red?

I hope this doesn't make me a lightweight,

because I ain't had booze in a while.

Bitch, I feel great.

You should because you got the highest praise

and just no negativity whatsoever so...

I don't know. Jackie--

And Jackie, too. Y'all probably in the tops.

-They loved y'all. -Except for my beard.

I love that you're a proud Persian queen.

One thing I'm going to tell you because you are Persian descent

and your hair is dark,

we're already seeing the bleed-through on the beard.

This is gonna be the bane of your existence.

I'm a twice-a-day shaver, girl.

Really?

I mean, you can watch it.

Like, if we look at a time lapse video,

it's going to keep growing back.

-Wow. -

But I will fix that and I'm not letting Michelle down.

-Is anyone nervous? -I am.

I'm nervous.

Yeah, I don't know why, but I do feel nervous.

I think you got really good critiques, Gigi.

They were obsessed with everything you wore.

Gigi Goode.

Your fashion show choices were fantastic.

What I loved the most about your rap

is that you had a double entendre in it,

"I'm just here to win and leave a bitch on read."

Literally, I would steal that line.

There is nothing between all of us

that was like absolutely like,

"You are definitely lip-syncing today."

Well, they did say that they could feel

that I was uncomfortable performing,

which is a pretty shitty thing.

But how did you feel about Miss Nicki saying

that you had the most beautiful face she had ever seen?

Nicki was obsessed with you.

It was a bittersweet feeling.

As much as I appreciate that people

acknowledge my makeup skills,

I just don't want to be seen as just like,

"Oh, you're so pretty and polished,

so you're a successful drag queen."

You are gorgeous. You truly are.

Because, to me, this is how I feel comfortable doing drag.

You can go further than my definition of drag,

and I know this is not RuPaul's Best Friend Race,

but I don't consider myself being on top of you

just because I know how to color correct my mustache.

So thank you for the compliment.

It was an honor. I respect her so much. I love her.

Now I need to make sure that I'm able to be as confident

in my performances that I am with my looks,

because I am a strong performer,

and I feel like I'm getting in my head too much,

just because of the "immigrant" thing.

I'm trying to live up to your level,

just because you guys are in your environments.

What do you mean, live up to our level, bitch?

We're all out of our element.

Being French and recently relocated

is hard because every time there's an awkward moment

with someone in your conversation,

because of your accent or the expression you used

that nobody understands the fuck you're saying.

All of that, you kind of like beat yourself up

because you know how eloquent

or how funny or quick you are in your country,

and here, you're kind of like more vanilla,

so it's hard to build confidence.

You don't have to translate everything you say.

-Yeah. -Yeah.

I'm struggling. I'm struggling in translating my struggle.

So it's not exactly the same.

I feel like our critiques were the opposite of each other.

Like, they loved, loved, loved your runways,

and they thought you were nervous

during your performance.

For me, I was the opposite.

My headpiece popped off, and I am really worried.

Nobody wants to be the first queen to go home.

But they loved my personality. Um...

I think that's the most important thing.

Hello, we can buy you better wigs, girl.

Yeah, girl.

We can't buy you a new personality.

Yeah, I mean, I'm from the small country, girl.

We sit on the front porch

and drink sweet tea and rock in our rocking chairs,

and very laid back, very...

Like back at home,

I don't live where my home bar

or whatever is.

So I'm not technically a "hometown girl."

So, I actually-- So, it was kind of like,

I don't fit in back at home.

Mm-hmm.

And no one really took me serious.

I just feel isolated a lot of the times,

and it's just... it's hard

to let myself out to others.

Like, as a regular person, I wear a mask

to hide the person who I truly am inside.

It's just that I've been hurt so much over the years.

Like, people always left me.

Like, I put walls up,

so when they do leave, it doesn't hurt.

Aww. Yo, I wanna give you a hug.

And I've done that to a lot of people.

And being here, I've let my walls down, and I'm--

I love you.

I'm not used to getting so close

to other people.

And really, I'm scared.

-Sorry. Sorry. - That's fine.

But I think I'm slowly chipping away at that wall,

and behind it is such a beautiful person.

I can't speak for the other hos

who may be comin' in,

but you have six sisters right here.

-No matter what happens here. -I'm so thankful

for this group of queens.

Seriously.

Honestly, yesterday, after the rehearsal that we had,

I was like, "Oh, my God, I'm not doing enough."

Like, I need to like amp it up.

Yeah, how do you feel?

They said that I didn't show personality in my lyrics,

I mean, which I agree, I didn't.

Didn't one of the judges say you were cocky, or...

Was it Nicki?

Nicki said that, well, a good rap song, you got to be cocky.

I liked Nicki until she said she hated my face.

I hate, hate, hate your hair and makeup today.

You still like her.

Oh--

-Girl! -

I think the critiques from Nicki Manaj to Heidi

about her makeup was kind of a sore spot

in Heidi's mind and in her heart.

And I'm a little bit worried

that it might affect her performance moving forward.

I don't think that she mean it like in a bad way.

- Yeah. - Yeah.

So, earlier, I asked you in the workroom,

I said, "Are you still mad at us?"

Then on the runway, today,

you backed up.

You said there were too many cooks...

Who was in charge of the choreography?

At first, everybody wanted

me and Heidi.

And after a while,

it just became too many chefs in the kitchen.

You asked me if I was still mad at you,

and I said, "No, I'm not,"

but there were too many cooks at first.

We were all talking over each other,