Euphoria

Here, baby.

Rue?

Baby, I need, I need you to drink this, okay?

Come on, come on.

-(Rue whimpers) -Let's just take a sip, baby, please.

Leslie: Do you need help with that?

Leslie: I got you.

Rue: You know what I like about hospitals?

-Leslie: We're almost there. Come on. -(Rue crying)

Rue: They don't need to know how good of a person you are

in order to take care of you.

Leslie: Come on.

Rue: They don't need to know what's going on in your head

before they wrap a bandage around your arm.

-(breathing heavily) -Come on.

Rue: People like that are rare.

The doctor put my mom in touch with a rehab,

who might have an open bed early next week.

-(crying) -Okay, okay.

Rue: Told me to stay strong.

Okay, okay, okay.

Rue: My mom is one of those rare people,

but maybe that's 'cause she's my mom.

She also grew up in the church.

And say what you want about Christians.

At least they believe in forgiveness.

I don't remember everything I said to my mom.

It's okay, Rue.

It's okay.

Rue: I wish I could say I didn't mean any of it.

Is that actually true? I mean, I thought it.

I felt it... I said it.

I'm sure most people would say

the world would be a better place without me.

I don't disagree.

In fact, I've been trying to leave it

for as long as I can remember.

Ali is also one of those rare people.

The strange thing is,

I bet most people would say the same thing about him.

"He's just a fuckin' crackhead wife-beater."

I bet his daughter said that.

- Even I kinda said that. -(engine starts)

That I regret.

Really fucking regret.

But if I'm being honest about who I am...

I'm a liar, a thief.

I'm violent, abusive, manipulative.

It's cold.

It's cold, Mom. Mom, it's cold.

Rue, you have to break your fever, baby, okay?

Okay? Come on.

Rue: And even if I got clean today,

no one would forget the trauma of me not being clean.

: Shit.

But I really regret what I said to Ali.

Reducing someone's life to a moment...

an ugly moment.

And punishing them for it.

That's what cops do.

It's actually what everyone does.

It's what you would do to me if you didn't know me.

Anyway, I should call Ali and apologize.

Ali (on phone): Hello.

Ali?

It's, um, it's Rue.

Ali: What do you want, Rue?

Um...

I just wanted to, uh, call you and tell you that, um...

I just wanted to call you and tell you that I'm sorry for what I said.

Um...

and I really regret it.

Uh...

I just-- I never should've said that.

Ali: Rue.

-And I'm sorry. I'm sorry. -Ali: Rue!

Listen to me.

I forgive you.

You do?

Ali: I do.

How do you know that I mean it?

Ali: Because the hour is certain to come.

So we must forgive graciously.

Thank you.

Thank you.

You look like a cat coughed your ass up.

Hey.

Rue: Ali said he would only stop by

if he could cook dinner for the whole family.

-Aw, thanks for having me. -Mm-hm.

-Oh, hi. -Hi.

I'm Ali. Nice to meet you.

-You're Rue's sponsor? -Uh... I am.

A better question is, uh, what're you doin' right now?

Gia: Nothing.

-Wanna help me cook? -Uh, I can help.

Ali: Nah, nah, you keep your stank

-withdrawal diarrhea-ass all away from my food. -(laughing)

-Oh, you wanna tell him about-- -No, no!

-I think you should. (laughs) -No, no, no!

Ali: Hey, yo, yo! I'm serious. You're a health hazard.

-In the other room. -Okay, dang. Thank you. Sorry.

-Bye-bye. -Rue: Oh!

-Oh. -Bye-bye? Bye-bye to you, too.

-Rue: Uh-huh. -I know you probably been washin' that ass.

-Oh. -They know I'm right.

-Exactly. -(both laughing)

I think she's doin' better today.

For as tough as it's been on Rue,

I'm sure it's been harder on you.

Dice these tomatoes.

It's okay to be angry at her.

I'm not sure that helps anyone.

Ah, well, oh, I... tend to disagree.

I think it would actually be good for you.

How?

You're not wrong to be angry at her.

That shit hurts.

It's unfair.

You don't deserve it.

I'm fine.

I am.

I didn't say I didn't believe you.

Rue: Now, Nate didn't know what happened with Cassie and Maddy

because when he exercises, he puts his phone on silent.

The irony was Nate woke up that morning feeling fantastic.

Because after an 18-year dick-swinging contest with his dad...

Nate had finally won.

Rue: His mom seemed to be handling it well.

His brother on the other hand...

Fuck is she so happy about?

Rue: not so well.

Rue: It wasn't the 38 missed calls from Cassie that concerned him.

It was the fact that there were zero calls from Maddy.

Part of the reason Nate loved Maddy as much as he did

is because she was loyal.

But it's also what scared the living shit out of him.

If anyone crossed her, she'd bury them.

And he had now really fucking crossed her.

And there was no doubt in Nate's mind what Maddy

was about to do.

Maddy: You know when a kid shoots up a school

and they go to interview the parents,

and the parents are like, "We had no idea.

He seemed, like, totally normal."

And everyone watching is like, "You're a fucking idiot."

That's how I feel, but with Cassie.

Kat (on phone): Look, I never trusted her.

What? Why?

Kat: Because she seems like the kind of person

who would fuck your boyfriend.

I think I actually wanna murder her.

Kat: I get it.

No, like, actually...

plan a murder and carry it out.

Kat: I get it.

Like a grisly murder. One that shocks the nation.

Kat: I think that's more than understandable.

What about Nate?

I have a few ideas.

No!

-That's dark-sided. -Are you two ready to order?

-No. (laughs) -Ethan: Um...

she's just on the phone. We'll just be a couple minutes.

We prefer customers not use phones at the tables.

-Kat: No, no, no. -I can understand.

-(Kat laughs) -I will circle back.

Okay, thank you.

Wow.

She's a cunt, yeah.

All right, bye. Love you. Okay.

-Oh. (chuckles) -Oh.

Sorry... I j-- We haven't said hello yet,

so I just figured I would greet you like I normally greet you.

Oh, sorry.

Maddy's going through this thing.

-You know? -Sure.

-I get it. It's awkward. -Yeah.

-So, what are we doing here? -Goin' on a date.

Yeah?

'Cause on the phone you just kind of made it sound

like, like it was an emergency.

-Did I? -Yeah.

-No. -Like, you asked if I could

cancel rehearsal.

I, um, I mean, well, I've--

I've...

been thinking... about us and, and our relationship,

and, um... um...

I have a... brain disorder.

What?

That's the rest of the sentence.

Um, I'm confused.

I think it's terminal.

Y-Y-You've been thinking a lot about our relationship

because you have a, you have a terminal brain disorder?

Yeah, I just, like, keep thinking, like,

all the hospital visits, and...

maybe, I'll have to get out of school,

stay home, you know,