This Is I (ディスイズアイ)

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You're participating in the Miss International Queen pageant.

Please tell our audience how you feel.

I'm so nervous, but I'm so excited to take the throne today.

- - You're really sure about yourself?

- Yes. - Let me get one brush.

- Water? - No. Right here. One more touch.

All right. No problem.

Excuse me! Move aside, please! Move aside!

Large object coming through!

You found it.

- Excuse me. -

- Excuse me. - That's your chair.

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SEIKO MATSUDA

What are you doing? Hurry up. Let's go.

- - You heard your father. Go change.

Hmm… You stupid-head!

It's almost over, let him finish.

Man-woman!

You are so weird!

Okama!

Why are you all laughing?

I'm just singing a song that I really like.

- Stop making fun of all my clothes. -

KENJI ONISHI KIDS AMATEUR SINGING CONTEST

Run!

Okay, next!

Ready,

set…

We both think that you should ask him out.

What are you waiting for? Just do it.

I got a new bra yesterday. It's really cute.

- What color? - Pink.

- Pink looks so good on you. - Yeah.

DEAR TAKESHI, YOU'RE ALWAYS SO POSITIVE

FROM KENJI

TO TAKESHI

It's the man-woman!

DROP DEAD, LADYBOY

- You're so weird. - He's an okama .

Look at that!

Hey, Kenji!

Why does everybody laugh at me?

I don't get it.

What the heck even am I?

What the hell am I?

Hey.

- You're drinking too much, Wada. - You're a doctor, remember?

A doctor, huh?

A guy like me?

Hey, didn't you quit the police hospital right after you signed up?

You're pretty odd for a skilled surgeon.

Hey! Did something happen?

All right, fine, I'll give you one…

- Nothing happened. -

It's just…

Surgeons don't care about the patients they operate on.

All they care about is the surgery.

You people only care about

the body parts.

The meat.

So tell us. What's your plan now, Wada?

Cosmetic surgery, I heard.

- Work for someone else. -

It's true. You're right.

I can't save a single patient.

I just… I just make people look good. I'm a fake doctor.

Tell me.

What is a doctor?

And medicine?

- I bet I think about that more than you! - Whoa!

- Hey, now! -

- Oh! So much meat here. - Don't throw that!

- There's so much meat to… cut up! -

- Hey, get away! - I'm gonna kill you!

Oh, wow.

This place is so lively.

- It's so loud. - Is that right?

- Hey. - Hmm? What is it?

Can I, uh… skip school tomorrow?

My stomach hurts.

It's not gonna hurt tomorrow.

Should I rub your tummy?

- - Hmm?

Go to school. Skipping can become a habit.

- All right. - Mm.

What, where are you going? School?

The bathroom, stupid.

You should eat more. You hardly had any.

Shut up and die!

- Shut up and die! -

- Cry all you want! - Crybaby!

Come on! Show us! Still!

Do you have a dick or not?

- Yeah! - Stop squirming.

Look at all that makeup! Look at him! I can get these!

- - What's wrong?

Ma'am…

Can you… please help me?

I can't take it anymore.

Onishi.

I'm sure you must have some part in all of this.

- - Stop being so fragile.

Try to be more masculine, all right?

But I didn't do anything.

I was just being myself.

What am I?

Someone please help.

SHOW HOUSE JORDAN PUB

- Hey, stop the music! -

- Come on, Megumi. You gotta smile more. - All right.

- Jennifer, learn the choreography. - Yep.

Marumi, you are doing way too much.

- Okay. - All right, start from the top.

Who's this?

Who are you?

I just thought you were so beautiful.

But I… had a feeling you weren't a regular woman.

- So I got curious. -

You're sharp, kid.

Most people rarely ever notice that I have a dick.

I really…

My dream is to be an idol like Seiko.

What are you talking about?

Do you think I could come work here for you?

I want to be up on stage. I want to dance and I want to sing.

I've never…

Experienced anything like it.

Ever since…

Ever since I was little, I've always wanted to wear pretty skirts,

but I had to wear pants because I was a boy.

Everybody in my class… calls me "okama."

They call me a man-woman.

It's been painful.

I started to think that I wasn't even human.

Stop with the tragic heroine victim act.

It's the same for all of us.

Everybody has their own sob story, a lot of them worse than yours.

You're not special.

And if you pretend you are, you've already lost.

I know it hurts but you'll be fine.

I'll show you the ropes.

- You mean that? - An okama always keeps their word.

Never mind. They don't always.

Listen. I'll make one thing very clear.

It doesn't matter how much you do here,

you'll never become a real woman.

Okay.

Instead, what you can become is what we call a "new half." Got it?

Thank you very much.