Hypnotica

I was going to hell.

Not slowly, like most of the people around me.

The shit I'd say to my ex-wife, to my little girls,

all these things inside of me.

I knew things,

things I didn't remember learning or reading,

books and poems.

Come away a human child to the waters and the wild

with the spirit hand-in-hand,

for the world's more full of weeping

than you can understand.

Listen, I have to go.

He'll be here any minute, okay?

Okay, so just tell me.

Who is this guy?

Come on, you said that all the other doctors

tell their wives.

You know, that's a HIPAA violation.

- Mason. - Okay, all right.

It's Oliver Reese.

The Oliver Reese.

Why is this guy such a problem?

When we talk, he goes in circles.

He won't open up.

I've tried every combination.

I think I have a diagnosis and then,

and then he changes.

But to compensate and

You can't keep going back to what's done.

Okay, honey?

David gave you no clue.

He's here. I'll call you in a bit.

Would you like to hang your coat?

Not my coat.

Relax, doctor.

Everything is gonna be fine. I feel great.

How do I look?

Well, you're smiling.

Oh, is that important?

Have you been waiting for me to cry, Doc?

Do I need to cry and be cured?

Should have told me.

Ah.

What's that?

An instrument.

You play music?

Death.

What else would you call a .32 caliber pistol?

That's, that's not funny, Oliver.

You know what the problem is?

Impulse.

Fuckin' impulse.

Things are goin' in the wrong direction for me.

N-no, you're all right.

Listen to me. You're gonna be all right.

I'm here for you. - You thought about it.

I'm sure you have, right?

You thought about death. - You're scaring me, Oliver.

Is that what you want?

You know, last night I went outside

and there was this beautiful hummingbird, just right there.

Just, just that close.

You should have seen it.

Its tiny little wings were flapping so fast.

It was like a blur.

Do you what the heart rate is for a hummingbird, Doc?

For us, as you know, it's, uh, it's 60.

What do you think it is? Take a guess.

What do you think? It's 1200.1200.

Nature is fuckin' awesome!

I swear that little bird was lookin' at me.

We were looking at each other.

Before I could do anything, it came at me.

It attacked my eye.

I couldn't get away and it stuck its beak right in there,

and it sucked the juice outta my eyeball.

Tell me something, doc.

If that's the kind of shit that happened

to you when you went to sleep, what would you do?

Let me have that gun.

I can't stop the things that are comin' in.

- Close the case. - I'm gettin' a little testy.

Oliver.

I just wanna take a quick shit, you know?

Close the case. Give it to me.

Did you hear me? This is enough.

Let me have it, now.

Doctor, doctor, doctor.

I don't think you can make me well.

He's obsessing about his patients.

He's isolating from relationships.

First you, then us.

Yeah, I know.

I'm not the mother he wanted.

That's why he's a psychiatrist, right?

He wants to be the exact opposite

of what our family has always been.

We are seers.

I've been sensing something.

Okay.

It's dark and it's close.

You and Mason need to be careful, okay?

Why would you do something like that?

I just really need you to understand

how fucked up I feel. - Oliver, look at me.

The truth.

Do you feel you might hurt yourself?

Or anyone else?

Oliver, I, I've failed you.

I'm sorry.

You need to transfer to someone with more experience.

Your board is not gonna postpone again.

They're determined to see their merger go through.

There's still time.

None of this is helping you.

Let's be reasonable.

This is the problem, Oliver.

This, this type of behavior.

This is the very problem we're facing.

How about a change, huh?

How about a positive change, huh?

Fine.

Great. I'll text you the names of two of them.

I'll let them know I referred you.

That's gonna make you feel better.

You will go, of course.

Nah.

You said no?

By nah, I meant that fuck that.

I'm not goin'.

Why won't you understand? I'm out of ideas.

I'm not goin' anywhere else.

Yes, you are.

Your job is to listen, right?

Well, listen to this.

No, I'm not.

- You're being foolish. - You're a fuck up.

Why in the world do you even wanna see me?

Because I like you.

That's insane.

I'm pretty sure you don't say that

to a mental patient, doc.

Then let, let, let's keep trying.

You know, I'll, I'll, I'll book a

Ah, now you said you already tried everything.

You know, I didn't just come to you because they said so.

I did my research.

You were highly recommended.

Best graduate ever.

And here's the thing, though.

You don't trust yourself.

Ah, what the hell?

Chill, sweet, doctor.

Are you coming out?

I'm walking- I screwed up.

I screwed up again.

Are you listening? - What? No, I'm here.

I need you to take me to rehearsal.

He has to want to help himself, okay?

Just let it go.

He's gonna do something.

Should you call 911?

For when?

Tonight? Next week?

I don't know.

Even if I ask, he won't come back.

Like he knows I've tried everything.

Okay, well, there has to be something.

Oh, damn it.

He just...

Hey, what about that class that you were taking

when we first met?

It was a throwaway elective.

He's not quitting smoking.

Ostrich.

You're an ostrich.

Your head is buried in the ground.

You know there are things that happen around you

that you have no idea about

until they actually happen to you?

It's not always what you can see, Mason.

I'll take you.

I'm gonna take an Uber.

Doctor.

Can you tell me when you learned to ride a bicycle?

Did you ever win a trophy for anything?

When did you learn to swim, Oliver?

Didn't it ever strike you as odd?

At best, you have a few sketchy memories

of anything before 12.

Virtually the day after your father left,

your memory is excellent.

Yeah, well, what is that supposed to mean?

No, I don't know.

Are you saying I purposely forgot shit

from when he lived with us?

Are you sayin' what I think you're sayin'?

I mean, you think he, like, he played my piccolo?

I don't know.

Go on.